Awakening

However hard you think, the title above refers to nothing in particular (or everything!). The term will always remain an abstract term. Personally, the term signifies multiple things for me. Although I may not be referring to my recent slumber issues and my nocturnal lifestyle, the significance of this word is what motivates me right now. 

Firstly, you can consider this blog post as an awakening. It has been quite a while since I wrote here. Even though I don't want to admit it, others would call it a 'writer's block'. Instead, I would like to look at it as a break to discover personal strengths other than writing. Although there has not been much progress in that "discovery", I realized one thing. Writing is my only outlet. Whatever state of mind I am in, writing helps me clear my mind, dissolve into a world of words where no one can intrude into. Solitude, which I constantly seek lately, can be attained through writing. So I have decided to start writing a personal diary in which I record all my thoughts and my views of the world. I plan to put myself through constant introspection so that I can help myself become a better person. Moreover, reading about your past is a fun pass-time when you're alone :P. That diary will be my awakening. Instead of being constantly clueless, it will open my otherwise thoroughly shut eyes to a more mature and logical understanding of everything that happens around me.

Another thing awakened me recently. I watched this new Science Fiction movie called 'The Martian' directed by Ridley Scott. It was an impressive movie to say the least. Amongst all the CGI and the graphics, the thing that caught my attention was the incredible use of technology and applications of technology in different ways. It is an Engineer's dream. Additionally, the Scientific laws and theories were surprisingly accurate for a Science "fiction" movie. I will stop reviewing the movie and come to the point. This movie was a sort of a personal awakening. After looking at how the characters applied their minds to help one person survive in mars, it is sheer brilliance. An engineer with so much talent and genius use of his knowledge is remarkable. This made me realize as to what I was doing with my life. There are people working hard to invent newer technologies which help us to live comfortably. As an Engineer, I realized it is also my duty to contribute to that in any way possible. Essentially, humans are delicate beings and humans stand no chance against the deadly forces of nature. But, we have built, invented so that we can survive in the face of nature. Everything which is man-made has been imagined first, drafted, theorized, experimented and researched before it came into existence. All these facts awakened me to the fact that I need to contribute to the ever-growing advancement of technology, Instead of wasting my life. It has opened my eyes to my future. I have a clearer picture of my future now and I guess it will motivate me to work towards it. I know it may sound a little too exaggerated but it excites me to think about the future and what it holds.

Of course, all that I said in the previous paragraph can be implemented only after I sort out my own life. Lately, 'my life' as we call it has been in shambles. In addition to extreme laziness and lack of intellectual activity, sleep has been a troublesome prick. All these are my problems right now and I know I can manage them and solve them one by one. I wrote it here for my own reference so that I can look back later to give me confidence. It is all about the mental state of mind. A little optimism is what matters and I guess this post might give me that. 

Ultimately, sleep can solve many of my issues, because sleep gives me an opportunity to be with myself, to connect to my soul and to dream. I consider sleep as an eternal friend. It relaxes the body and connects the mind to another world, a fantasy. Obviously, that friend is not always marshmallows. There can be some instances of negativities, like nightmares. Nevertheless, sleep takes you away from all the worlds problems, the negativities of the world and lets you be at peace for some amount of time. That is what I seek in life. A good night's sleep.

As Dalai Lama rightly said, 'Sleep is the best meditation.'