The inconsistent insomniac

Let me be honest with you. About the title, I looked through a thesaurus to find out synonyms which go well with the word 'insomniac' but I chose the one above because of the alliteration. The title may not make sense now but if you read on, you will know why I chose this particular title with a happy coincidence of an alliteration.

I have this disease, a disorder or whatever psychological term you can call it. Lately, it has been more evident to me. For a long time, I knew something was up with me. It is just recently I have discovered this. It is who I am and the choices I make. Maybe it involves genes too. It may be socially unacceptable but I guess I have to eventually come out of the closet. That is the hardest thing you know. The society is not so open minded and I fear that they will not accept me. Coming out, accepting oneself and hoping the society will accept me for who I am is the hardest thing to achieve. So I feel it is better to do it now rather than later. If I come out in my blog post, then I guess it will not explode out of control so much so that I wouldn't regret coming out. So I decided to do it here. It has been a difficult few years until i realized that it was no use to keep bottling it up. So here it is. I have decided to come out.  I am not human. I am an owl.(what else did you think, reader?). I am insomniac.

For a long time, I knew that I was nocturnal. I just discovered myself lately and found out that I cannot sleep like any other normal human being. Staying awake is part of my lifestyle now. Blame it on the stressful engineering life or the evolved owl life. I feel it is unnatural. So I am working on becoming more human. Owl life gets boring you know.

I would be cheating if I told you that I am a complete insomniac. Ignore the above sentences and read the following ones. I am a human after all and I need sleep. Humans spend about 1/3rd of their lives sleeping and it is impossible for any normal human being to survive without sleep continuously. So I manage to get some amount of sleep everyday. But it has been inconsistent. My sleep cycles are terribly imbalanced and that is affecting my lifestyle. I am trying to bring back some balance into it but it will take time. Meanwhile, another sleepless Saturday night going into Sunday morning, I made use of my time effectively by studying for an important aerodynamics exam on Monday. I decided to write this because my brain fell asleep after studying for 3 hours continuously. I needed a break from this madness and I find solitude in my blog. I find solitude in my laptop and writing something brings me peace. Also, this period of time from 2.00 am to 6.00 am is my favourite time to do productive things because of the eternal silence and zero distractions. I imagine myself the king of the world while the other "mediocre" human beings sleep, I conquer the world in my mind. I have the freedom to do my work continuously and I love the solitude around me.

You may think I am retarded for writing this post. However condescending your thoughts are I urge you to write them down below in the comments. I would like to know the intensity of my madness through another's perspective. I will take your leave now to satisfy the basic human need to eat and I will try to avail some part of that lifetime card which wastes 1/3rd of my life. I curse the person who invented this concept of human needs.  

The Beauty of imperfection

In an age where robots look more like humans, the biggest question arises, how can we differentiate between a human and a robot? This results in even more terrifying questions, like "robots taking over humans", "robots having their own mind" and other ideas from clichéd science fiction movies. The first and the most obvious response to the above question would be the Turing test. But the test is proven to have loopholes and our beloved robots nowadays are smart enough to find them. There is one thing human beings can't achieve. Perfection. A machine/robot can be perfect because it has only two logic states- True and False. Humans don't have a definite logic state. It can vary anywhere between 'True' and 'False' but neither of the two.

Imperfection of human beings is a thing of beauty. It is those little imperfections that defines a person, combined with unique characters and traits, imperfections leads to a perfect combination of personality. Imperfections also exist in our universe. Many scientific theories and experiments are based on imperfections. There are laws which explain those imperfections and defects. Humans are not new to perfection. The planet they are born in, the earth is in the perfect astronomical position to support life. In scientific experiments, what we call as "human error" is due to imperfect conduction of the experiment by the human being.

There is only one thing that is perfect in this world. Nature and all its forms are perfect. The plants and animals co-exist in perfect symbiosis. The perfection of nature is the reason why we admire it often. It is like Newton's first law of motion, If a system is at rest or motion will remain at rest or motion if there is no external force acting on it. The same thing is applicable here. Nature has been existing in perfect harmony till humans came along. Humans, being the brutal external force here started messing up this inertia called perfect harmony with their own imperfections.

Humans achieving perfection is impossible, If it happens, then there will be no concept of god. Hypothetically, imagine this scenario where humans finally achieve ultimate perfection. Life will become boring and monotonous. Everyone will start doing the same stuff and there will be no variety. Basically, human civilisation will die and humans will transform into robots. It will be like the Dalek invasion(Yes,Doctor Who reference). So ideally, perfection cannot be achieved by humans.

Certain people in my life strive to achieve perfection and I totally respect them for this. It is great to have some fixed goals in life and achieving perfection as one of them is appreciable. If they strive hard, they will come close to perfection. It is like an asymptote in mathematics. They tend to become perfect but never actually achieve perfection. I am not discouraging those people, but I dedicated this part of my article to those people who strive hard to achieve perfection. I keep them in high regard and have immense respect for trying to do this. Keep continuing to do so and also inspire others to follow you in the path of perfection.

With this, I'm signing off to lead my 'imperfect' human life. Since I am a human, I am sure there will be some flaws and mistakes in my post. Please comment below with your thoughts and also point out any imperfections in my writing so that you can also prove that I am not a robot :P.