A warning to my readers: This post was written when I was going through some issues and my mind was turbulent. The post is induced with a lot of emotions and my personal life. I'd advice you not to go further if you're not used to read these types of posts. Also, I have to warn you that this post is unusually long and it might bore you to death. I do not want to be the cause of your death. Peace.
I want to travel through time. I wish I could control the time dimension. Using a remote control at my own will, accelerating, decelerating, fast-forward, rewind and pause.(not a full stop, just a pause.) I fantasize about travelling through the fourth dimension, both future and past and all things present. This is one concept you will only see in Science fiction because our scientific research and technological "advancements" are too primitive. But of course, one can fantasize about such things happening in real life when the reality becomes boring.
The number twenty-four is significant in anyone's life. People weren't creative enough to give names to the period of rotation of earth so they named it twenty-four hours. One thing that infuriates me is that this one full rotation of Earth is not enough for me to live my life. How I wish the earth rotated slower? At least three hours slower. Twenty Seven hours a day sounds good. I just can't imagine all the extra work we can do if it actually existed.
Lately, I have had terrible days with an overload of work which requires more than twenty-four hours of my time. Balancing has become much more difficult than unstable equilibrium. I am not new to multi-tasking, I've done it before and I know I can do it again, more efficiently. But the magnitude of jobs and tasks have been humongous. I have come to a point where I need to put my efforts in various tasks but output comes to be substandard. As they say, I have all work but no play. Even though I'm not Jack or a dull boy, I feel frustrated when things don't go my way. This affects my sleeping and eating habits.
I was going insane to be working like a machine. A machine with infinite links and colossally complicated mechanism.(Yes, this is what too much studying has done to me. I am not a nerd). I was lost in the deepest pit of insanity with no sense of direction. I had no idea that I was slowly killing myself mentally. My appearance was compared to a zombie due to lack of sleep and irregular eating habits.
And then there was light. Two of my best friends screamed at me down that pit till I could listen to them. They showed me the light, showed me the way to climb out of that pit. showed me how I unknowingly got into the pit. How I dug that pit deeper and finally, how I can dust myself and get up.
Sitting in my lab and introspecting(instead of working) , I realized how I was driving myself the wrong way. Among all the negativities surrounding me, I am glad that I have these trusted friends who pulled me up, Friends who were concerned about me when I ignored myself, they gave me moral support. This friendship is one of the few I value a lot. In certain situations, my rational mind goes on a vacation but crazy as they may be, these friends helped me rationalize my thoughts. Looking from mathematics perspective, I was looking for the value of 'pi' but they gave me 22/7.
When I am upset or down in the dumps, there are few things which can cheer me up. Music is always the best remedy as music has the eternal powers to change a person. I have more to talk about music but I will save it for another post. I find solitude in the virtual world in form of games and movies. Nowadays, after a long, hard day of college, I look forward to the time I have in lab because I learn a lot while working. Also, my team-mates are like a family to me and we have fun together even while working. After all that I've gone through in the day, I'd like to write down what I've been going through. Writing clears my mind and helps me think straight again. This blog post is the result of the above.(might be a recursive statement. That was purely unintentional). Also, trivial and nonsensical chats with friends reassures me that the world is not cruel after all.
Lastly, my bed, my laptop and the calmness of my room cheers me up and soothes me. Talking about bed, I remember that I have to get enough sleep if I need to work on climbing that pit. So time to sleep before the long climb.
I want to travel through time. I wish I could control the time dimension. Using a remote control at my own will, accelerating, decelerating, fast-forward, rewind and pause.(not a full stop, just a pause.) I fantasize about travelling through the fourth dimension, both future and past and all things present. This is one concept you will only see in Science fiction because our scientific research and technological "advancements" are too primitive. But of course, one can fantasize about such things happening in real life when the reality becomes boring.
The number twenty-four is significant in anyone's life. People weren't creative enough to give names to the period of rotation of earth so they named it twenty-four hours. One thing that infuriates me is that this one full rotation of Earth is not enough for me to live my life. How I wish the earth rotated slower? At least three hours slower. Twenty Seven hours a day sounds good. I just can't imagine all the extra work we can do if it actually existed.
Lately, I have had terrible days with an overload of work which requires more than twenty-four hours of my time. Balancing has become much more difficult than unstable equilibrium. I am not new to multi-tasking, I've done it before and I know I can do it again, more efficiently. But the magnitude of jobs and tasks have been humongous. I have come to a point where I need to put my efforts in various tasks but output comes to be substandard. As they say, I have all work but no play. Even though I'm not Jack or a dull boy, I feel frustrated when things don't go my way. This affects my sleeping and eating habits.
I was going insane to be working like a machine. A machine with infinite links and colossally complicated mechanism.(Yes, this is what too much studying has done to me. I am not a nerd). I was lost in the deepest pit of insanity with no sense of direction. I had no idea that I was slowly killing myself mentally. My appearance was compared to a zombie due to lack of sleep and irregular eating habits.
And then there was light. Two of my best friends screamed at me down that pit till I could listen to them. They showed me the light, showed me the way to climb out of that pit. showed me how I unknowingly got into the pit. How I dug that pit deeper and finally, how I can dust myself and get up.
Sitting in my lab and introspecting(instead of working) , I realized how I was driving myself the wrong way. Among all the negativities surrounding me, I am glad that I have these trusted friends who pulled me up, Friends who were concerned about me when I ignored myself, they gave me moral support. This friendship is one of the few I value a lot. In certain situations, my rational mind goes on a vacation but crazy as they may be, these friends helped me rationalize my thoughts. Looking from mathematics perspective, I was looking for the value of 'pi' but they gave me 22/7.
When I am upset or down in the dumps, there are few things which can cheer me up. Music is always the best remedy as music has the eternal powers to change a person. I have more to talk about music but I will save it for another post. I find solitude in the virtual world in form of games and movies. Nowadays, after a long, hard day of college, I look forward to the time I have in lab because I learn a lot while working. Also, my team-mates are like a family to me and we have fun together even while working. After all that I've gone through in the day, I'd like to write down what I've been going through. Writing clears my mind and helps me think straight again. This blog post is the result of the above.(might be a recursive statement. That was purely unintentional). Also, trivial and nonsensical chats with friends reassures me that the world is not cruel after all.
Lastly, my bed, my laptop and the calmness of my room cheers me up and soothes me. Talking about bed, I remember that I have to get enough sleep if I need to work on climbing that pit. So time to sleep before the long climb.
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